What Hurts The Most... (!_!)

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty empty house, that don't bother me..

I can take a few tears now & then & just let 'em out..

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though goin' on with you gone still upsets me..

There are days every now & again I pretend I'm okay, but that's not what gets me..

What hurts the most... 

Was being so close..

& having so much to say..

& watching you walk away..

& never knowing..

What could have been..

& not seeing that loving you, is what I was trying to do... 

It's hard to deal with the pain of loosing you, everywhere I go.

But I'm doing it..

It hard to force that smile when I see our old friends & I'm alone..

Still harder getting up, getting dressed, living with, this regret but I know , if I can do it over

I would trade, giving away all the words that I save in my heart, that I left unspoken..

What hurts the most... 

Was being so close..

& having so much to say..

& watching you walk away..

& never knowing..

What could have been..

& not seeing that loving you, is what I was trying to do... 

That's what I was trying to do..